This is something that ended up in my email, really random actually and it spoke volumes to me. May it speak to you as well.
~Angee

I call you forth now from bondage to freedom

Beloved, I am allowing this difficult circumstance at this time as an opportunity for you to overcome failure and rejection that still holds a place in your heart. It is a place of weakness that the enemy can exploit unless you face the power of the enemy to keep you in bondage. I call you forth now from bondage to freedom; from death to life; from darkness to light. And, you shall come forth in great and lasting victory. It is time for you to be released from your past once and for all and to be free, says the Lord.

Psalms 107:14 He brought them out of darkness and the shadow of death, And broke their chains in pieces.

I got a Job

Well for those of you who care, I now have a job. I am using the schooling I have received. And I am now a massage therapist at a spa in downtown edmonton. I am a professional. weird eh.

so what now....

So right now. God told me to wait. I went ahead. God told me to wait again. I made plans. He told me to wait for a third time. And once again I charged on ahead...and now I am completely at a loss. Wondering what on earth is next. Now I am back at square 1, when I could have been waiting.
The next time God tells you to wait...wait. Don't go. Red means stop....

The past 4 weeks

As you may know I spent the past 4 weeks working at my former home and the place that holds my heart Big River Bible Camp. I thought that I would update you on what the past weeks looked like.

I got to Big River via my Mom. My mom is so awesome. She drove me 6 hours to the camp. It was hard getting back into the swing of things especially since all the staff that had been there had already been there for a week. And since Big River had been the last place I lived since leaving the country it seemed weird to see so many other people taking over my home :) But it was ok.

I shared a cabin with a girl from Prince Albert, Kim. She was a great girl and we had a great week with a bunch of 12 year old girls. I actually got to sleep during FOBIC (flat on back in cabin) and it was just a good week. But no ammount of sleep could take away the exhaustion I had felt. I mean I had been going going going, left Israel got home, was there for a few days, had to see a bunch of people and I didn't really get a chance to 'spiritually, emotionally' rest. But God definately sustained me. Oh and the speaker for week 2 was pretty much karazy. He was this illusionist guy with a puppet. God also got me thru the hardcore boring chapels :) but they were good for the kids.

The second week that i was there, I had 2 co counsellors, Hannah from Las Vegas, and Kaitlyn from Cumberland House. It was a slightly more difficult week. Just emotionally draining. We had lice in our cabin and I freaked out. I have dreads and everyone told me that if you get lice you have to shave your head. So I frantically checked the internet for different ways to remedy the problem. Turns out I didn't have them. But this week I absolutely fell in love with a little girl her name was Crystal. She called me mom the whole week. My heart broke to let her go, I even cried. I never cry at goodbyes, goodbyes have made me some what jaded. But I loved that little girl so much, and I would have brought her home if I could of. But over all it was a pretty good week.

Then the next week, was an interesting week for me. I counselled alone...in a tent. yeppers I had 5 girls in a tent. And it rained the whole week. And they were somewhat difficult girls. THere was not enough room in the tent so all my stuff sat underneath a tent for the week. The reason why I was in a tent was because we were too full, we had our biggest week of camp pretty much ever. And we didn't want to turn anyone away. So we set up a tent. But overall it was pretty good. This week it was harder than the past weeks to connect with the kids since it was just such a big week of camp.

Then comes the final week. Teen camp....the past 3 weeks had been junior camp (8-12). Well teen camp was interesting. 30 some kids. 4 counsellors, and the speaker went in one camp. It was a karazy week. I left teen camp feeling so drained. At times i felt as if I was the only counsellor there. Girls from other cabins would come in my cabin at 2 am to talk to me cuz they couldn't talk to their counsellors. Like ya it was just draining hearing all these girls problems and they were asking for help, and just knowing that there really wasn't anything that I could tell them. Like they were crying for me to help them stop smoking, stop drugs, stop drinking...but I don't live there. I can't support them. These girls don't have any support. And that is hard.

So I think overall, this past year has taught me one huge lesson. Or maybe not a lesson, but with all these goodbyes, and leaving people after a week of knowing them, I think that God is calling me to stay in one spot for awhile. I am not sure how soon the staying will come. But ya we shall see what is next.

Be still and know that I am God...Psalm 46:10

home again

I am home for the second time in a month. Camp is over for the year and I still have no clue where I am headed. This summer was my hardest year of camp yet, and I am not sure why. Maybe cause I went to camp already exhausted...I'm guessing that, that doesn't help.
BUt ya I am tired and my bed is calling me....I havent slept on it for over 7 months, and when I came home at the beginning of July my room was a storage room...so tonight will be the first night.