camp

Hello HelloRight now I am on my 45 minute break from my kids. For those of you who don't know i am currently counselling at Big River Bible Camp. Me and my co leader have 5 girls. They are all so beautiful. And out of 5, only 1 of them have looked at a bible before.I am one of the older staff and I am only 20, so I am kinda forced more into leadership and I am there really to just encourage and be an example. Being an example is actaully quite hard, and God has really been challenging me with loving people. We have had some major love issues at camp here, and its a hard camp i'm not gonna lie. Its a native kids camp, and the stats say that 80% of kids are abused...we rarely see the 20%. So these kids are just crying out for love. And we can say that we love them all that we want, but its our actions that speak. These kids don't believe that we could possibly love them, so they try to make us mad, they want to prove that we don't love them, they try to push our limits.I was really challenged at how I respond to this...How do you respond out of love?
And God has just really been teaching me that. And loving isn't easy. Especially with in the staff also. But its someone that if we are a believe of Jesus Christ we are called to do!
So I challenge you to love someone today. Give a hug, a word of encouragement. Befriend someone who its hard to. Be the difference. Be the light. Be.

Like a Rolling Stone

How does it feel

How does it feel

To be without a home

Like a complete unknown

Like a rolling stone?

Ya, that is what I feel like right now. It is really good to be here with my family and such. But it really just doesn't feel like an actual home. I am going to camp tomorrow in Saskatchewan and that feels like I am going home. But not an actual home. And then I realized that I am bound for so much more. This isn't my home. I feel like I am just a fish in a fish bowl and I don't see beyond my bowl. And it is true, there are so much more to things and this life that I know. One day Heaven will be my home. Seriously what a flippin trippy concept. Kinda freaks a person out. But how cool to know that eh? To know that this isn't our real homes. We have so much more coming.

But yet we have so much here. Jesus came so that we would have life and life to the full. I feel like i have lived a pretty full past few months. The other day I had time to just sit and talk to God and journal my thoughts. And that was pretty cool, and afterwards when I was driving away, I was like this is where I am supposed to be right now. And it was a cool feeling.

My thoughts are just all over the place. I really ya, I am happy, well I guess happy isn't the right word. I am content in the moment. I feel as though I am in the right place (although I don't really want to be here) but it feels right.

Anyways I should go, cuz i am really blabbing now.

starbucks, walmart and CSI

Thats what real life is. or I guess normal life is. I am kinda bored with it already. Its like i expected life to be waiting for me the exact way it was the day i got on the plane, and its different. but yet i was expecting lots of change and yet nothing has changed. Its real weird.

So ya i am at home now. Soon I shall be heading off to work at a camp. That will be good I hope. Not sure how i feel about this home thing, not sure how long normal life will last. I feel as though I am ruined for the ordinary. as much as i say i despise living out of a back pack, i miss it too.

Take me away!!! haha.