No Woman No Cry

I don't know why i named todays post that. its one of my favorite songs by Bob Marley. I don't know, i used to hate crying. i would avoid it at all costs. and if i knew i was gonna cry i would do it in the private of my own room. Today i went to a really good church service. i cried. everyone was pretty much crying. no that was an understatement...i was bawling. The preacher was talking about freedom. freedom from stuff. the stuff that holds us back. the stuff that stops us from living for God. the stuff that stops us from bringing more people to God. Stuff being, anger which turns to bitterness which turns to hatred if we don't deal with it. and i don't know about you but i am a bitter person. i remember exactly what the woman looked like who gave me an absolutaly horrible hair cut in grade 8. like talk about bitterness. but ya i am not sure why but i cried alot. i thought i had dealed with alot of issues in my life and i hadnt even begun to. so ya i had this breaking point today, cried, called out to God, the whole 9 yards. and i thought i was done. well tonight i went to another church service in the city, and i realized i had a whole lot more to deal with taht i thought. i have so much stuff in my life that is crap so to speak. so many things that i try to hold on to. and they are hindering me for living a life full of fire for God. and then i realized....i am going to bible school in a few days. what a good place to deal with the crap in your life :) haha so my stretching has only just begun. i should come back from new zealand hardcore skinny from all the stretching that will take place.
anyways ya, letting God work in you and break you is hard. it requires letting down your walls and letting God in. he won't force his way in right now, he wants you to choose him. so i just wanna challenge you that no mattter how hard it is, let down your barrier and let the almighty in. I mean what have you got to lose? ...burdens? Heart aches? lonliness? to me i can't see any negatives in letting God in.
anyways any questions feel free to email me, or ya you can always comment....i would love for yall to comment on what you read.
but ya feel free to cry. i thought i was an emotionless void...cry out to God. don't be afraid to. he won't push you away. he is waiting for you with open arms! use them! Run into his awesome arms of love!
angee