hasn't sunk in???

when is the fact that i am leaving in less that 30 hours gonna sink in? basically tomorrow is my lastest day here in canada for at least 6 months. thats totally flipping karazy eh.
i don't think its gonna actually sink in til i am on the plane. thank the Lord that they have plenty of paper bags that i can hyper ventilate into. and i have suddenly developed a fear of flying it seems. i mean what with all these movies that are out about flying, red eye, flight plan. like hollywood really knows how to make me feel good about life :) not to mention their super skinny plastic people...haha but thats another subject all together.

ya so new zealand eh. i still can't believe it.

anyways on to new things. i just thought of something funny. how funny life is. I had a youth group back in the day (some of who may read this) but i won't mention any names. and like ya we went to church every sunday, and youth group and worship team. k there must have been umm lets see a core group of 5 or 6 i guess. here are the stats, 2 went into missions right after high school. 1 became a drug dealer in highschool, one become a alcoholic after high school. and one starting sleeping around, doing drugs and drinking a ton. you'd think that the 2 who are living for the Lord now would be the 2 that went into missions. nopers...just one,the other one let down their guard, and is now fallen it seems, and the "sleeping around, doing drugs and drinker" is now going to new zealand. yeppers that one is me. its just weird. church kids fall when forced to go to church i guess.

the moral of the story is we all need to find God on our own terms. i found him again on my own terms. noone forced this religion thing down my throat. noone forced me to go to church. we need to pray for those who aren't following God, not shove the gospel down their throats, cuz if we do that they will wanna know God less and less.

angee