letdowns, triumphs and just crap

Hey,

So as some of you may not know, I moved out of my Mom's house at the beginning of November. I moved to the west end of edmonton....for my cousin, because we would be near to where she worked, so then I could use her car to drive to my work. So things were going good, we were just settling into the place and to the routine of life.

Then comes Wednesday. Wednesday I did not start work until the afternoon so I was at home eating lunch and I went to the kitchen to grab a cup from the cupboard...well the whole kitchen cupboard fell off the wall. Who does that happen to? The whole thing. Seriously. I am not even lying. It hit my neck and my leg. Glass everywhere. Turns out the contractor did a really crappy job.

Well I called my cousin at work, and told her. And then she said she needed to talk to me when I got home. We talked when I got home, and she said that she had basically quit her job and was going to move back home to Ontario in January because she wasn't happy where she is. Well thats fine, that gives me 2 months to find a roomate or decide if I am gonna move. Well yesterday which was Thursday, she stayed home sick and her boss called in and said that since she was quitting anyways she might as well not come back. Well she is leaving on Tuesday.

So now I have a place which I can't afford. I have to spend 4 hours on the bus each day. I have never been this angry or stressed out in my life. Actually as I write this tears are falling. I am so stressed that I have been puking, I've passed out, and my eye sight is blurry. And I am angry. I've only lived here for 2 freaking weeks.

Honestly, I understand, but she screwed me over. Right now I honestly hate her. That is something I am going to have to deal with, God says don't let the sun go down on your anger. I let it go down and now I am even angrier. Right now, I don't care to ever see her again. I know that sounds harsh but its true. I can't hide how I feel. She hurt me. She really did.

And ya thats my laugh right now, but I need to go puke once again, so I should go.

Angee