Blessed I am

Setting: A very posh hotel in Singapore
Background music: Beautiful pop violin music
Reason: God is freaking ridiculous

As you may have guessed, I am writing this blog from a hotel in Singapore. I feel so undeserving of this. This is one of the nicest hotels I have stayed in, in my life. And yet it is for free. I am staying in a hotel that I could only dream of, for free. I actually have tears in my eyes.

God is so good. In about 30 hours, my year concludes. My year concludes. This year is nearly over. A year ago on the 11th, I embarked on one of the greatest adventures of my life. And now it is quickly drawing to a close. How do I sum up a year in just a word, let alone a sentence? I guess my sentence would be 'holy shit.' Seriously. OR maybe What the crap would suffice just as well.

24 is the number of airplanes that I have been on in the past year. I don't even want to calculate how many hours I have spent in the air. 12 is the number of countries I have been in this year. 20 is my age. I have lived a life. I have lived more life than some people 3 times my age have lived. Why do I deserve this? I am so undeserving of this blessing!

I seriously can't believe what a year its been. I honestly have a hard time believing that some of the things that I've done actually occured. Who gets to spend easter weekend in a Russian Prison? Like really? I have shared my heart and my testimony with so many people aroudn the world it is crazy. Orphanages, painting, praying, singing, drawing, chopping wood, dramas, dancing, laughing, crying....Who does this all?

I don't say these things to glorify myself. But to give glory to the father. It is only by him that all these things were made possible. He is able to do considerably more than we ask or imagine. I could never have imagined this.

Now I feel as though my life is no longer on hold. I can move on. These past few months I have just been on hold I guess, waiting for my return to New Zealand to conclude my adventure of hte year. I don't know what the future holds, I don't even know what 2 months from now holds. But I do know that its ok not to know. I know that God has called me. He has. And ya that concludes this post for the day :)